A Blast from the Past

[kirby1024]

It's funny what you find looking back on your LJ. Considering the trials and tribulations I've been through the past while, it's interesting to see the antecedents of what happenned prior. The post linked to above was written just after New Years, when I had decided to stay with fireflyfaery rather than break up with her. It was originally set to Private, seeing as I wasn't really sure whether I wanted people to see what was happenning then. Of course, so much has happenned since then, that I've switched it over to Friends-only instead.

It seems odd, to look at me then, and to look at me now, with all the things that have happenned in between. As sucktacular as the last few months have been, I think that I've become someone better for it all. I've discovered a well of courage I didn't know existed, and a flood of friendship I'm not entirely sure I was expecting. I've had so much help from those around me, and I've found that with that help, I've learned to be stronger in myself. I'm discovering that I'm capable of so much more than I thought I was ever capable of doing.

For the first time in a while, I think I'm feeling confident about my future. There are still things that need addressing, it's not like I'm over the events of the last few months, and I'm still not sure how these things will play out by the end. But I think I have the strength to deal with these things, however they end up manifesting.

And knowing that makes so much of a difference.

Comments

[taiba.livejournal.com]

It's amazing how we grow through adversity, isn't it?

You gradually learn to be strong, and not necessarily "impose your will on others", but rather learn to maintain your own stance and conviction in who you are and what you want.

And don't worry, we all learn that the hard way :-)

*hugs*

[geekweevil.livejournal.com]

if you go through crap, you find out what sort of person you are capable of being. both good and bad, it's all good to know what you can be capable of, and choose which way you want to go.

you're doing really well.
:)

[cheshire-bitten.livejournal.com]

I am glad that I know you now then.

[damien-wise.livejournal.com]

As sucktacular as the last few months have been, I think that I've become someone better for it all.

So very true.
It says a lot about you that you're where you are after all that's happened.
And "sucktacular" sure fits. :)