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So, it's been a while since I've updated, mostly because Dreamwidth and my work computers apparently don't get on too well, and screw up layouts enough that I can't actually write up an entry. Ah well.
Me and my psych came up with something interesting. I've been feeling very... fragile and meh for a while, and while I've been having fun every so often, I've been feeling very... unfulfilled. It's taken me a while to figure out why this is been the case, and I think I now know why - I'm not at uni.
See, thing is, I have always said that academia was where I wanted to be. Being at uni, studying things, it just made the rest of me, well, work. There wasn't much that could get me down as long as I knew I was on the path that I'd chosen in life. And thing is? I'm not right now. I'm stuck in a job, working hard to pay my debts off so I can go back to uni. But it seems so far away, and I don't seem to be making much progress on anything. So I've been feeling crap, and not facing the world much, because I'm not studying, at all.
Of course, that's not going to change for a while - the money still needs to be paid off, and I'm not sure I can juggle everything effectively and still go to uni. But, I decided that somehow, I have to get back into study, even if it's just a little course. So I decided to put down the money and start a German course, of which my first lesson was today.
It was good, actually. To be back in a classroom was good, although my head apparently has lost some of it's focus, and I'm actually going to have to work hard to keep everything in my head. But I'm looking forward to it, honestly. I'm not heading on the track I really want, but at least for once I'm moving, and it's not like German isn't useful to a Linguist, after all.
Now, back to cleaning house, after neglecting it since, well, last time I posted a big entry, to tell you the truth. Cleaning house is hard with a sprained arm! Thankfully it's starting to recover well, although I am so very sick of telling students at work about it when they ask!
Me and my psych came up with something interesting. I've been feeling very... fragile and meh for a while, and while I've been having fun every so often, I've been feeling very... unfulfilled. It's taken me a while to figure out why this is been the case, and I think I now know why - I'm not at uni.
See, thing is, I have always said that academia was where I wanted to be. Being at uni, studying things, it just made the rest of me, well, work. There wasn't much that could get me down as long as I knew I was on the path that I'd chosen in life. And thing is? I'm not right now. I'm stuck in a job, working hard to pay my debts off so I can go back to uni. But it seems so far away, and I don't seem to be making much progress on anything. So I've been feeling crap, and not facing the world much, because I'm not studying, at all.
Of course, that's not going to change for a while - the money still needs to be paid off, and I'm not sure I can juggle everything effectively and still go to uni. But, I decided that somehow, I have to get back into study, even if it's just a little course. So I decided to put down the money and start a German course, of which my first lesson was today.
It was good, actually. To be back in a classroom was good, although my head apparently has lost some of it's focus, and I'm actually going to have to work hard to keep everything in my head. But I'm looking forward to it, honestly. I'm not heading on the track I really want, but at least for once I'm moving, and it's not like German isn't useful to a Linguist, after all.
Now, back to cleaning house, after neglecting it since, well, last time I posted a big entry, to tell you the truth. Cleaning house is hard with a sprained arm! Thankfully it's starting to recover well, although I am so very sick of telling students at work about it when they ask!
